tumbling down
im fucking tired of working. waking up the whole day and having my entire day deleted. i make 26 an hour and put away only 3% to my retirement and still only make around 30kish a year. how the fuck is that possible. i have no fucking free time to do anything. iv known about youtube since 2005 yet never tried to make youtube videos or things im passionate about. ever since starting my job iv learned what it means to have free time yet and want to do all these new things yet i have no time. im fucking tired of socializing with people at my job, having people rely on me, having to do things and work under someone, being forced in proximity with others. i miss being a neet but living with my mom forever will just make me a slave to her instead of a slave to my manager or a landlord. she dates a guy who larped as being a super chill nice bf but now since living here for 8 years hes shown his weed addiction, his alcohol addiction, his car broke down and he hasnt gotten a new one, he quit his job and hasnt gotten a new job and the excuses and excuses and excuses. motherfucker wont take my moms old car and use it to get a job because "im the man, i should be giving YOU my old car". mother fucker you are poor and have nothing to your name, you dont have the PRIVILEGE to have any pride.
and with this FAT FAT FAT FAT RETARDED NIGGER in the white house literally SENILE old man who fell asleep in his suadi arabia visit who wakes up on the wrong side of the bed and is in his full legal right to single handedly NUKE the stock market and nuke retirement accounts, my investment account, all US companies, and people clap and cheer because being anti establishment is heckin cool and makes you le contrarian le epic edgy lord yet you are fucking allergic to facts and fail to realize you are in a modern day cult. you care about nothing. YOU CARE ABOUT NOTHING. you preach about "furthering the white race" yet you are fucking single, where is your white wife? where are your white kids? oh, you dont have a beautiful trad wife or any white kids? huh thats awkward, you dont have any! this world is legitamitly retarded and i didnt choose to be born. living is suffering. i dont want to choose between living with mommy the rest of my life vs working for 30 years and paying a mortgage for another 30 years and dying to further some other rich retard who doesnt even know i exist